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„Я люблю Алису в Стране Чудес, потому что я думаю, это то, что я могу сыграть очень хорошо. Ты не думаешь, что мы должны делать Э. У.? Алису в стране Энди Уорхола? Энди и так берётся за многое, я понимаю. Ну, это был бы фантастический фильм. Я хотела бы, чтобы кто-нибудь написал сценарий для него в современном стиле. Я думаю, это был бы чудеснейший фильм в мире, если его сделать. Не думаешь? На самом деле, я не думаю, что они сделали хотя бы что-то, как сделали Walt Disney, как одни из тех, которые на самом деле не делают это. В некотором смысле это так, но не сейчас они должны его делать. Сейчас необходимы реальные сюжеты. То есть не только символические мультики, но и актуальные для людей сюжеты, потому что здесь очень много фантастических людей, которые, как и ты, могли бы также использовать людей.“

„Мода в целом является фарсом. Люди, стоящие за ней извращенной, создающие пугающий людей стиль, это только натуральные чудаки. Я знаю это, потому что я работала со всеми ними, когда была моделью.“

„Я переехала в Санта-Барбару, чтобы якобы выздоравливать, и я начала употреблять наркотики, очень много я нашла в Айла Виста, вокруг территории университетского кампуса — UCSB. Тогда я потеряла контроль вместе с людьми, все из которых были гораздо моложе меня. Им было от 15 до 20, а я была в конце своего второго десятка.
И было весело, но действительно у меня не было особенной любви. И я до сих пор, за исключением любимых друзей, не любила никого год за годом. Но я ещё верю, что когда-нибудь это придёт.“

„Я расцвел в здорового молодого наркомана.“

„Я выпила немного Кровавой Мери, когда попала сюда и приняла ещё несколько Плацидилов. С моей терпимостью ничего не должно было случиться, но я внезапно впала в кому. Мои глаза закатились в моей голове.“

“I had no money. My parents closed down all credit. I couldn't get any money, and they were trying to lock me up again because I'd taken some acid and told my psychiatrist about it. I just told him what the experience was like and he jumped, and at the same time he read about Andy Warhol's "pornographic" movies in Time. I was in the studio a lot, so my psychiatrist got really upset and called my parents and was gonna have me put away, so I ran away to Europe with Andy and Chuck.”

“Oh, wow, what a scene that place was - that heavenly drug down sexual perversion get their rocks off health spa. I was already so bombed I don't know how I got there. I got down to the pool, where all the freaks were. I met Paul America at the pool and I told him we were probably in danger if we stayed, but we were so blasted we forgot what was good for us and what wasn't, and the whole place turned into a giant orgy... every kind of sex freak, from homosexuals to nymphomaniacs... oh, everybody eating each other on the raft, and drinking, guzzling tequila and vodka and Scotch and bourbon and shooting up every other second... losing syringes down the pool drains, the needles of the mainline scene, blocking the water infiltration system with broken syringes. Oh, it was really some night just going on an incredible sexual tailspin. Gobble, gobble, gobble. Couldn't get enough of it. It was one of the wildest scenes I've ever been in or ever hope to be in. I should be ashamed of myself. I'm not, but I should be. Sex and speed, wow! Like, oh God. A twenty-four-hour climax that can go on for days. And there's no way to explain it unless you've been through it; there's no way to tell anyone who hasn't tasted it. I'd like to turn on the whole world for just a moment... just for a moment. I'm greedy; I'd like to keep most of it for myself and a few others, a few of my friends... to keep that superlative high, just on the cusp of each day... so that I'd radiate sunshine.”

“In the year 2000 you're going to have a problem…. Leisure time will be a problem in the year 2000. I just want you to realize, I just want to make sure that you know of it now.”

“If all I cared about was me, I could make a million. And that's what they will never understand.”

“I think something very weird's going on now, 'cause the power that is permitted to youth is quite extraordinary. And they are sort of run by that kind of power.”

“I lived a very isolated life. When you start at 20, you have a lot of nonsense to work out of your system.”

“Isn't that sad! I'm so fragile. It's tragic [laughs]. Can you believe it? That's so sad.”

“I heard about this doctor who gave vitamin shots, and they were very stimulating and kept you going for quite a while. I was under treatment with vitamin therapy, just multivitamin shots. But I heard about this super deal that this other doctor had. A guy I was going out with at the time told me not to go to him, never to have his shots. So I immediately took them, thinking there must be something special about them…And there was. And I went, and that was the beginning of injecting drugs. I went to a doctor for it. I didn't handle it myself until a year later. I turned into a total speed freak for a few months. That's about as long as I could survive, and then I placed myself in the hospital.”

“The colors…oh, I see the most fantastic things. Do you realize when people just close their eyes what they see? It's unbelievable. Colors and things, forms of every sort. I wonder if that happens for everybody?”

“I do love Alice in Wonderland though, that's something I think I could do very well. Don't you think we ought to do an A. W.? A. W.'s Alice in Wonderland? Andy Warhol's Alice in Wonderland? A. W. stands for a lot of things, I understand. It, uh, it would make a fantastic film. So I wanted somebody to write the script for it, in a modern sense. I think it would be the most marvelous movie in the world, if it could be done. Don't you think? Really, I don't think they'e done one since they did a Walt Disney one — which isn’t really doing it. In a sense it is, but not in the way it really should be done. What's needed right now is a real scene. I mean not just cartoon characters, but the actual character of people because there's so many fantastic people that you might as well use the people.”

“It's not going to interfere with the film. I heal miraculously. I've been in an auto accident and another fire. They thought I'd need plastic surgery, but I haven't a scar…No, I don't think I'm accident prone, but it's strange.”

“I came to New York to see what I could see — that's from a children's book, isn't it? — and to find the living part.”

“Fashion as a whole is a farce, completely. The people behind it are perverted, the styles are created by freaked out people, just natural weirdos. I know this because I worked with all those people while I was modeling.”

“I think drugs are like strawberries. That was something I was very much a part of, but at the same time there's that incredible nightmare paranoia... it drives human beings crazy. It frightened me to see it around me... I had everything that could be moves stolen by speed freaks. Things began to disappear. The Queen Bee Speedfreaks and Amphetamine Annie had found out where my apartment was. All my jewelry was stolen and all my expensive clothes. Dior, Balenciaga... just tons of originals. By the way, have you heard anything about my furs? Everybody's wearing them.”

“I act this way because that's the way I feel like acting. If people like it, fine. If they don't, that's their problem.”

“You live alone, creating your life as you go.”

“It's frightening and glamorous and exciting at the same time. I wouldn't change it for anything! After the bad and sad times in my life, it's something I want to do.”

“kk kk ggg ddd wowo well uh, well, no, well sa-ay. I I I know know know I I can but it's ha ha ha hard.”

“I'm out of my mind! Somebody told me that a long time ago. Some idiot! [laughs] … In a dream. I don't want to think about dreams now.”

“I moved out to Santa Barbara to straighten out, supposedly, and I started using drugs, which I found were plentiful in Isla Vista, around the college campus — UCSB. And then I started rollicking around with all kinds of kids a lot younger than me. Anywhere from 15 to their 20s, but I was kind of in my late 20s. And, uh…I had fun, but I really didn't have anyone I particularly loved. And I still don't, except for loving friends, but I mean I haven't been in love with anyone in years and years. But I have a certain amount of faith that it'll come.”

“It's okay — I know.”

“The way those sons-of-bitches took advantage of me. Warhol is a sadistic faggot.”